I've noticed that the rush of this “epiphany” is already fading. I’m afraid it’ll just melt away like many enthusiasms past. Perhaps I have to be satisfied with momentary excitement about one thing and then another sort of like meandering around in a field of wild flowers.
I especially don’t want to loose the enhanced freedom I’m feeling from this breakthrough. I’m allowing myself to feel some small excitement about making specific commitments with myself. I’ve been so very good about my practice and my exercise that I’m somewhat encouraged. I am also encouraged by the freedom with which I published to my blog a couple of days ago.
I still have a sense of freedom with regard to taking this conversation on the road with me. I’m sure I will experience various fails along the way and I look forward to learning how to recover quickly. “Nothing is wrong” is a point of return - a little like an emergency exit from making myself “wrong” when I make a mistake.
My practice in general is my daily exercise and specialized training for my chosen sport, i.e., actually generating this conversation.
Reading this over before posting it, I am reminded how much work there is for me to do.
Love, W
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